A Rethink



I’m feeling incredibly depressed still this evening, although today wasn’t too bad.  Well, after thinking about what I wrote yesterday I decided that actually sometimes you need to have people you can relate to and so somebody who is or who has suffered depression can empathise better than most.  In fact sometimes cheerful, happy people can feel like having salt rubbed into a wound.  The ‘Woe is me, why me feeling?’ encourages feelings of ‘Why them, how come they get to be happy’, when in a more irritable frame of mind.  So basically what I said previously now feels like it was a sweeping statement at best and utter BS at worst.  Is it showing how indecisive and how little self awareness I have at the moment?  I’m hoping that is in some way entertaining or at least interesting to some.  Isn’t entertainment a strange concept these days?  The world of reality TV.  Here’s a little of my reality life, which I find somehow cathartic to share.  I want to feel free to be me whatever that happens to be at any particular time.  There, that is something to feel good about. At least I have no shame and why should I?  We all experience the same emotions, why be ashamed of any of them?  Some can just be extreme and overwhelming but that’s when we need to reach out to each other.  I’m such an idealist but I have to try and hang on to that, the other option for me is to the other extreme and it’s all doom and gloom.  The wonderful world of extreme emotion, a bit like extreme sport perhaps.  How I am rambling this evening.  I’d love to know how this is perceived, without too much cruelty of course.  Looking forward to more stable days 😀

On another note, please remember you can win one of my paintings at my website http://www.larainbriggs.com   Just read the instructions on the Home page.


About larainbriggs

I'm an artist and have been since I can remember. Being an artist is one thing that has remained constant. At 10 I received my first oil painting set and by the age of 14 I had my first piece of work in a local gallery window. I am not an artist by choice, art chose me but I am extremely happy that it did. It is my path and vocation and the right thing to do for me. As long as I am doing that then I am doing the right thing, there is no question about that for me. It's a spiritual experience that is difficult to explain but I am sure other artists will understand exactly what I am saying. Here is my artist's statement to explain what my art is about:- I am currently a practicing artist living in Dovercourt. I previously taught in London and was a self-employed supply teacher where I live now. I studied Fine Art at Camberwell, and at Goldsmiths in London for a Post Graduate certificate in education. I also studied for a BSc in Computer Aided Visualisation at the Anglia Polytechnic University and Art Therapy at the Institute for Art in Therapy and Education. Unable to work outside of the home due to disability both mental and physical, I now focus on my multi-disciplinary art practice full time. My work has been inspired by Carl Jung for a long time and exploring my unconscious for even longer. I work through painting, assemblage and installation, employing various strategies to access animus, the shadow, and my soul. Through creative expression, I attempt to externalise the inner reality of my psyche. My work acts as a mirror where I try to see my soul - the inner workings of my mind. It transcends persona and barriers to connect with my true self where I hope to reconcile internal conflicts and heal myself. It would be impossible to communicate these aspects of my psyche verbally. The work is full of symbolism and archetypes which I believe are viewed in turn by the viewer in an unconscious manner. I hope that this will also be as therapeutic for the audience as it is for myself. My work is healing, especially to those who have mental health issues. I invite others to have a glimpse of a mind that is often troubled, anxious and depressed and to find empathy and understanding for people who are suffering from mental illness. I hope to touch the soul of anyone viewing my work. Currently, my work is mostly abstract in style but just as I can see archetypal images and symbols within the abstracts that reflect my own soul I hope that the abstract will act as a mirror to the viewer where they will see relevant images that relate to their own psyche. I am diagnosed with bipolar disorder and BPD(Borderline personality disorder) sometimes known as emotional intensity disorder. I believe this latter diagnosis has developed through a number of traumas occurring through my life. I wish to raise awareness of mental illness through my work and hope to one day be able to show to many more people where I will have a forum to discuss the difficulties that these problems bring. View all posts by larainbriggs

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