Beginning of a Bio

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I’m not sure what I’m going to write today but I thought I’d just put my fingers on the keys and let them do their own thing. I used to be a touch typist so it makes it easy to just type as I think. The trouble is I don’t know what I’m thinking exactly, I don’t want anything too negative and it’s all heading that way. I’m so tired all the time and was hoping it was my thyroxine levels are just low which would be easy to remedy but unfortunately they aren’t. I just want to keep sleeping. I feel like it’s wasting my life. Maybe with a bit of luck I’ll have a high very soon and be twice as busy as usual.

Here’s a little personal history, just to get it down in writing for once. When I was 27 I moved to London to take my degree in fine art at Camberwell. I’d already started growing dreadlocks and was moved by Reggae music and the Rasta ideals. I’d been a Christian all my life but wasn’t keen on church doctrine, this seemed to suit me. I’d previously been a punk, clubbing in London and actually had dreadlock extensions. The club I went to mostly was Astral Flight at Fooberts, with Tracey my friend. I had a relationship with the DJ there ‘Wolf’. He was friends with Mick Jones and Joe Strummer from the Clash although I think by then Mick Jones was in Big Audio Dynamite. I wasn’t really into the celeb thing, never was and still am not so I didn’t really pay that much attention. I loved the DJing that Wolf did though and have tried to get in touch with him just to find out what he’s doing now but haven’t been able to. The Bat Cave was also run at Fooberts on the Wednesday, it was all part of the same crowd. Phil Salon, who ran Heaven, Rusty Eagon who produced music and DJayed at the Camden Palace etc. The Kit Kat club, quite a few I’m not sure where I was. We’d party the whole Saturday night and then all go on to someone’s flat, squat or a cafe. In some ways it was a good time but in others confusing. This was all before I started my degree or any of my formal art education, although at 14 I’d already had a painting in a gallery window display. so art was part of my life all the way through. I loved to dance to ‘White Wedding’ by Billy Idol the best and ‘Relax’, Frankie Goes to Hollywood but also loved hip hop, Grandmaster Flash and the Furious Five etc. I hadn’t been diagnosed with bi-polar at the time and I had little self awareness, there are lots of things I regret about this time. I just couldn’t seem to have a decent relationship and nothing really had any meaning. I had no direction. That would all change though but it took some time and I’m still not there.

I’d better stop there for now as it all gets complicated and is rather long. I haven’t even got to London yet, this was when I would commute at the weekends from Gravesend in Kent where I grew up. I’ll write another installment when I get the feeling I want to divulge although it all gets rather emotional, as life does I guess. Perhaps if I keep these all together I can create a biography from them but it always worries me how it might make my relatives sad or shocked. Having bi-polar has a very intense effect on life.  More to follow……



About larainbriggs

I'm an artist and have been since I can remember. Being an artist is one thing that has remained constant. At 10 I received my first oil painting set and by the age of 14 I had my first piece of work in a local gallery window. I am not an artist by choice, art chose me but I am extremely happy that it did. It is my path and vocation and the right thing to do for me. As long as I am doing that then I am doing the right thing, there is no question about that for me. It's a spiritual experience that is difficult to explain but I am sure other artists will understand exactly what I am saying. Here is my artist's statement to explain what my art is about:- I am currently a practicing artist living in Dovercourt. I previously taught in London and was a self-employed supply teacher where I live now. I studied Fine Art at Camberwell, and at Goldsmiths in London for a Post Graduate certificate in education. I also studied for a BSc in Computer Aided Visualisation at the Anglia Polytechnic University and Art Therapy at the Institute for Art in Therapy and Education. Unable to work outside of the home due to disability both mental and physical, I now focus on my multi-disciplinary art practice full time. My work has been inspired by Carl Jung for a long time and exploring my unconscious for even longer. I work through painting, assemblage and installation, employing various strategies to access animus, the shadow, and my soul. Through creative expression, I attempt to externalise the inner reality of my psyche. My work acts as a mirror where I try to see my soul - the inner workings of my mind. It transcends persona and barriers to connect with my true self where I hope to reconcile internal conflicts and heal myself. It would be impossible to communicate these aspects of my psyche verbally. The work is full of symbolism and archetypes which I believe are viewed in turn by the viewer in an unconscious manner. I hope that this will also be as therapeutic for the audience as it is for myself. My work is healing, especially to those who have mental health issues. I invite others to have a glimpse of a mind that is often troubled, anxious and depressed and to find empathy and understanding for people who are suffering from mental illness. I hope to touch the soul of anyone viewing my work. Currently, my work is mostly abstract in style but just as I can see archetypal images and symbols within the abstracts that reflect my own soul I hope that the abstract will act as a mirror to the viewer where they will see relevant images that relate to their own psyche. I am diagnosed with bipolar disorder and BPD(Borderline personality disorder) sometimes known as emotional intensity disorder. I believe this latter diagnosis has developed through a number of traumas occurring through my life. I wish to raise awareness of mental illness through my work and hope to one day be able to show to many more people where I will have a forum to discuss the difficulties that these problems bring. View all posts by larainbriggs

2 responses to “Beginning of a Bio

  • davideileen2

    Well said… I did the same thing… always goes long because there are so so many things to put to paper… this was completely lovely! ‘God’ be with you… always.

  • larainbriggs

    Thank you for reading and for your comment. What do you mean you did the same thing? I’m so pleased you enjoyed it, I wondered if perhaps my story may be boring for others to read, especially as I am no writer. I do my best.

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