Some of my work and daily misfortune.

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That’s enough for now, it’s always difficult to know which ones to choose.  If you like these have a look at my website http://www.larainbriggs.com  You can win one of my paintings on the 18th April if you sign up for the newsletter.  Doesn’t cost you anything and the painting is up for £520.  At least worth a look.  I’m trying to get some more people to visit my site, so please share if you do. Anyway, that’,s my bit of marketing for the day.  I’d given up on that for a bit.  All I want to do is create, really I need an agent or manager.  

Well the last two days have been strange.  How to write something quite complex without it getting boring, any tips would be very much appreciated.  I will try and be concise.  Yesterday morning I felt so ill and had such pain in my stomach I couldn’t get out of bed and asked my son Jacob to get me some Pethedine.  I’d forgotten that I’d recently had a morphine patch and added another antidepressant to my others.  I’d been warned about ‘Seratonin Syndrome’ by the psychiatrist and was feeling incredibly ill. The stomach pain went away but I could hardly walk, my head was spinning.  If anyone had seen me they would have thought that I’d drunk a bottle of vodka, plus!  I couldn’t speak without slurring and I was sweating and extremely hot.  Eventually I phoned the doctor.  He said he didn’t think I had Seratonin Syndrome which by now I had fixated on in my confused and drunken like, drugged up state.  He was concerned about the drugs I’d taken and said I must see my GP next day.  Well today I thought I was feeling better but thought I’d check my pulse, it was 46 bpm :O !!!!!  My breathing seemed to be about  8 bpm.  Now, not fixated on seratonin syndrome but rather on death I phoned my doctor in a panic.  The receptionist said she’d get the doctor to phone me.  By now I was checking my pulse every 5 mins just to check I wasn’t dead.  The dr phoned eventually and said get up here now for ECG.  Well apparently it is very low, still is and I’m not well but all caused by the cocktail of medication I’m on.  Oh, the fun of having bi-polar disorder as well as physical problems.  Whilst there is breath left in me (if only 8 intakes per minute) I will continue to paint.  I will also make sure I make it to my first grandchild’s birth in October and hopefully well beyond once I have the divorce court stress over with.  I’m now with the mental health crisis team (no wonder).  Life is so complex I can’t even explain it all but if anyone is a little curious about any of these issues I’d be glad to elucidate.  Here’s hoping I haven’t been boring and that you have enoyed my art.  Thanks for reading.  There’s always so much more that I want to read than I can find time for so I do feel very privileged when anyone reads mine. 

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About larainbriggs

I'm an artist and have been since I can remember. Being an artist is one thing that has remained constant. At 10 I received my first oil painting set and by the age of 14 I had my first piece of work in a local gallery window. I am not an artist by choice, art chose me but I am extremely happy that it did. It is my path and vocation and the right thing to do for me. As long as I am doing that then I am doing the right thing, there is no question about that for me. It's a spiritual experience that is difficult to explain but I am sure other artists will understand exactly what I am saying. Here is my artist's statement to explain what my art is about:- I am currently a practicing artist living in Dovercourt. I previously taught in London and was a self-employed supply teacher where I live now. I studied Fine Art at Camberwell, and at Goldsmiths in London for a Post Graduate certificate in education. I also studied for a BSc in Computer Aided Visualisation at the Anglia Polytechnic University and Art Therapy at the Institute for Art in Therapy and Education. Unable to work outside of the home due to disability both mental and physical, I now focus on my multi-disciplinary art practice full time. My work has been inspired by Carl Jung for a long time and exploring my unconscious for even longer. I work through painting, assemblage and installation, employing various strategies to access animus, the shadow, and my soul. Through creative expression, I attempt to externalise the inner reality of my psyche. My work acts as a mirror where I try to see my soul - the inner workings of my mind. It transcends persona and barriers to connect with my true self where I hope to reconcile internal conflicts and heal myself. It would be impossible to communicate these aspects of my psyche verbally. The work is full of symbolism and archetypes which I believe are viewed in turn by the viewer in an unconscious manner. I hope that this will also be as therapeutic for the audience as it is for myself. My work is healing, especially to those who have mental health issues. I invite others to have a glimpse of a mind that is often troubled, anxious and depressed and to find empathy and understanding for people who are suffering from mental illness. I hope to touch the soul of anyone viewing my work. Currently, my work is mostly abstract in style but just as I can see archetypal images and symbols within the abstracts that reflect my own soul I hope that the abstract will act as a mirror to the viewer where they will see relevant images that relate to their own psyche. I am diagnosed with bipolar disorder and BPD(Borderline personality disorder) sometimes known as emotional intensity disorder. I believe this latter diagnosis has developed through a number of traumas occurring through my life. I wish to raise awareness of mental illness through my work and hope to one day be able to show to many more people where I will have a forum to discuss the difficulties that these problems bring. View all posts by larainbriggs

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